121 I do what is fair and right.
Do not abandon me to my oppressors!
122 Guarantee the welfare of your servant!
Do not let the arrogant oppress me!
123 My eyes grow tired as I wait for your deliverance,
for your reliable promise to be fulfilled.
124 Show your servant your loyal love!
Teach me your statutes!
125 I am your servant. Give me insight,
so that I can understand your rules.
126 It is time for the Lord to act—
they break your law!
127 For this reason I love your commands
more than gold, even purest gold.
128 For this reason I carefully follow all your precepts.
I hate all deceitful actions.
“My eyes grow tired as I wait for your deliverance, for your reliable promise to be fulfilled. Show your servant your loyal love!” (v. 123-124a) The psalmist understood that he was allowed to express (in his very prayers) his doubts and fears about God’s intentions toward him. Many of us often hesitate to say such things to God, believing that we have some obligation to always express complete confidence in Him. It isn’t as though God isn’t aware of our doubts. Our unbelief is actually greater when we are silent about it.
Many of us will go through periods of utter darkness in our lives, where nothing inside us or around us shows a hint of God’s presence. This is where genuine faith is tested. Part of passing the test is bringing our anguish before the Father and telling Him everything we are thinking and feeling. We are not just encouraged to do this; we are urged to. “Cast all your cares on him, for he cares for you.” (1 Peter 5:7) “All your cares” includes fear, doubt and unbelief, for the child of God will be concerned about these things. The author of Hebrews shouts: “Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has ascended into heaven, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet was without sin. Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.” (Hebrews 4:14-16)