A friend suggested I read Psalm 119, eight verses at a time, and journal as I go. I don’t know how compelling my thoughts will be to others, but I am going to share them here anyway as I go through the entire Psalm. I hope some will take comfort and strength from it along with me.
1 Blessed are those whose ways are blameless,
who walk according to the law of the Lord.
2 Blessed are those who keep his statutes
and seek him with all their heart—
3 they do no wrong
but follow his ways.
4 You have laid down precepts
that are to be fully obeyed.
5 Oh, that my ways were steadfast
in obeying your decrees!
6 Then I would not be put to shame
when I consider all your commands.
7 I will praise you with an upright heart
as I learn your righteous laws.
8 I will obey your decrees;
do not utterly forsake me.
“Do not completely abandon me!” (v. 8) This is the cry of a sinful man, whose predilection to disobedience cannot erase the knowledge that his sin is awful and deserving of punishment.
“If only I were predisposed to keep your statutes!” (v. 5) This must be the cry of every regenerated heart, which knows it is right to obey God but is still pulled violently away by his own wrong desires. The only answer is to come continually to God, asking for grace and mercy. The above quote is written in holy Scripture, which tells us God fully understands our predicament and has made a way of escape for us.